Day Two

I had a great day today as far as eating goes. I had to stop myself though at lunch here at home and not go to the bread or cheese to snack on while preparing my lunch. Here is what I had today:
B: high protein granola bar 110 cal
1 cup orange juice 110 cal
L: large fruit/spinach salad with walnuts 350-400 cal with homemade dressing
S: crackers 140 cal
D: I was craving chili cheese fries and had enough calories left so I baked some fries in the oven and used 3/4 cup lowfat chili and 2 oz of cheese. 550 calories
S: hotdog bun, I know didn't need it. 120 cal It was whole wheat though!! :)
I got all of my water in today.

Change

If I ever want to see change in my life, then I must change my lifestyle, habits, everything. Even my routine. Why do I think that I can continue eating the foods and lack of exercise that got me in the boat and expect to lose weight? Hello Sarah! Get with it. I still have time, it's the beginning of a new year, and I want it to be a new me. How bad do I want to work for it? Am I ready to commit myself? I am going to have to work out in the morning, it just isn't happening in the evening's too lazy and tired from work. Why oh why did I eat 3 big reese's butter cups? Because Robert had bought some and they are in the house. That is 630 calories, wasted. Ugh! He hid them and I even found them!!! So I bought more to replace the ones I ate- I hate this. Absolutely hate it. I am going to workout tonight though while watching BL and American Idol. I drank alot of water today and had around 2K calories, too much, about 600 too much which was the reese's! It's over and I am moving on.

Even healthy foods can be dangerous!

I made the brownie/black bean recipe today and I had one rather large one while they were hot. I just threw them out because I could see myself snacking on them constantly so no matter what no sweets. I just don't have self control when it comes to sweets! I am not a soda or chip person but sweets just get to me. So there you have it! The recipe was good, surprisingly! With a little fat free ice cream and cool whip it would be really good, but that's the thing; I would eat that until the pan was gone, one by one. So they are in the trash! Goodbye sweets. :( I love my kitchenaid mixer but right now baking is off limits. I REALLY want to say goodbye to the 200's at the end of this month-eating junk isn't going to get me there. I did horrible this week and the scale is up a little by .4 but I am going to weigh in tomorrow and see what prevails. I ate out 5 times, that never happens with me. I didn't pig out really but just fast food and empty calories.

Lunch Portions

So I go home at lunch everyday and just pig out and don't even get full. Why? I know I do it after the fact, like now I am looking and I had 960 cal at lunch, here is what I had, fat free cool whip, too much, 3 servings of ritz crackers, low fat chili, a slice of cheese, and a cup of milk. 500 of those calories was junk; cheese, cool whip, and too many crackers. Ugh!!!!!!!!! I am in this habit everyday and now I see it on paper the junk. Must stop- I have to go home but the mindless eating only happens at lunch, I don't really do this much in the evenings. So now I have to eat a really light dinner and work out. Can I do it? Find out later!

Can't quit thinking of food today!

I have good news before starting my blog about my food- I graduated college about 3 wks ago and I received a huge raise, more than expected! So that's great news for me!

On the other end, I have just eaten too many calories today, back into my bad habit of what got me here. Mindless eating, munching. I have had 5 pieces of bite sized chocolate which adds up at work today, the last 3 cookies here at home, and we had sonic for dinner because i was too lazy to cook. I had a plain cheeseburger and plain tots. So dinner was 830 calories, and I am not even satisfied. Sure I am full-but not satisfied. I did have an orange and a banana today and low cal soup I made for the week. But the chocolate and cookies were not necessary, they did nothing for me but add more weight!! I really want to lose 7 more lbs this month and eating junk everyday won't get me there. I have 4 more days until weigh in so I need to make them great days and be accountable for everything.

Jan Goals

I thought I should set a few small goals this month-

1. Lose 8 lbs-already lost one. If I lost 7 more that would put me at 200 lbs.
2. Work out 3 times a week, and give it all I have when I do.
3. Drink more water, I like water but don't drink enough of it.
4. Journal my food more often.

Can't hide anymore

I have learned that I can't hide behind sweatshirts and hoodies anymore! I thought I was hiding the fat but have seen pics from christmas and oh have mercy!!! I don't always wear them but on the weekends I like to be comfortable when just around the house or going to the store.

And, my husband has decided that he wants to go eat mexican food right down the road from our house. So I worked out on the ellipital and did the level one of the 30 day shred. I am not starving so I don't plan on pigging out but I have eaten too many cookies today, probably 10 so I am beyond where I should be health wise for today. But that doesn't give me the "ok" to eat really bad at dinner. I made a batch of lasagna soup today to have on hand this week for lunch. I just love that stuff- Paula Dean recipe, but low fat. I haven't had any of it, thought I better wait until dinner. We are leaving- follow up later with how I did!

May have to give up baking

I love to bake, my mom is a great cook and she has taught me how to bake cakes, pies, cookies, all from scratch. This knowledge has led me to being overweight. As silly as it sounds before I got married I did WW and I still have all of my old food journals from 5 + years ago. When I was 156 lbs, now I am at 207.6. Ouch! But I am not 22 anymore- I need to move forward. With that being said I think I might need to put my baking on hold for a while even though I got one of the kitchenaid artisan mixers for graduation a few weeks ago. I could use it to make whole wheat pizza dough and some other things. My parents came over last night and we made homemade cookies, I have had 4 already. There are about 2 dozen left, I hate to throw them out, that's wasted money right?!! I am going to tell myself to avoid the temptation but not restrict myself from them.
On another note, I am still so sore from Jillian's workout on Friday. That and I have been moving junk, throwing away crap and putting up christmas so I haven't slowed down much. I still have so much to do-*sigh* does it ever end? I don't even have kids, I don't know how people do it!
My husband is sick with a cold, in bed. Our baby (dog) had some shots Friday and he is so sore he's in bed too with my husband. So I don't want to be too loud and disturb them.
I am glad tonight finally Desperate Housewives is new!!! Yippee! The weather here is insane, the past two days almost 80 and today it's in the 40's.
I lost 1 lb this week, I think due to the sodium in the foods we ate Friday night. I had a 2 lb loss but my official wi is on Sat and it showed only 1 lb, so I will take it.

New Years Day

Well, I am happy to say that my weight is still down, I can't wait to weigh on Saturday for the official number. I had a good night last night, nothing exciting except watching a bunch of older drunks play pool and darts at a friends house. I didn't drink-but oh my hubby did! He was sick all day, we didn't get home until 4:30 this morning and he had several shots of tequila. We rarely drink or do anything so to see him so sick really bothered me. We had bought tickets for today to go see King Tut in Dallas so we went. He was sick the whole way there and while we were there he finally started feeling better. Now he's back to normal. Tequila wasn't his friend today/last night! Glad it wasn't me. He insisted that we go ahead and go today. I was dissapointed, $15 to park, no valet. $80 with all of the fees to get in the place and the museum was sooooo crowded you couldn't take your time. We stopped at Saltgrass Steakhouse and I had maybe 4 oz of a ribeye and salad. Along with mashed potatoes, just had some toast and milk I was a bit hungry. So I didn't gorge today- proud of myself.